The Medusa Phase of Meditation – Frozen, but Aware

🧘‍♂️ Day 2 – The Journey Goes On… 🌅

As usual, today was another step in this unfolding journey. This was Day 2, and it came with its own set of experiences, challenges, and small improvements. One change I made during today’s meditation was elevating my sitting position 🪑. It might sound small, but it made a big difference. This adjustment helped me avoid the numbness and pain in my legs 🦵, which usually becomes a distraction. Sitting a bit higher allowed better blood flow and posture, and that really supported me in staying present.

Aside from that, I noticed something like yesterday: there was redness in my eyes 👁️ for a short period after the meditation. At first, it felt strange, but over time it gradually returned to normal. Maybe it’s a sign of inner strain or detox, I don’t know yet. Also, compared to yesterday, the headache today was lighter 🤕. It was still there, but not as intense—a minor weight instead of a pounding sensation. Maybe my body is adjusting to this deeper stillness.

One of the biggest things I’m starting to understand is how this meditation unfolds in phases 🌀.

The first phase is definitely uncomfortable 😣. As soon as I sit down and close my eyes, my mind becomes like a noisy room filled with questions, distractions, and wandering thoughts 💭. Things like:

• “Is this too long?”

• “Why am I doing this?”

• “Maybe I should stop now.”

These thoughts try to pull me out of the experience, like mental resistance fighting back. But when I manage to ignore those voices and return to the breath 🌬️—moment by moment, inhale by exhale—something shifts.

That’s when I enter the second phase, and this is where things get deep. My body becomes frozen, almost like I’m a statue 🗿. I can’t move—not even my fingers. It’s like Medusa herself turned me into stone 🐍. But strangely, I’m not unconscious—I’m fully aware of what’s happening. I feel trapped in stillness, yet I know I’m not actually trapped. It’s just stillness—total physical silence.

And then something rare happens: a subtle realization rises. A kind of awareness that comes from deep inside, almost like touching another layer of the subconscious mind 🧠✨. It feels like there are different rooms in the subconscious, and sometimes during meditation, I’m allowed to briefly visit one of those deeper spaces. It doesn’t last long—just a few moments—but it’s powerful. Like being shown a glimpse of something vast, unknown, and silent.

Now, one issue I noticed that I want to work on is my breath pattern as time goes on. During the early part of meditation, my breathing is calm and balanced. But after a while, it starts to become shorter and shorter 😮‍💨. Eventually, this creates a feeling of lethargy, like I’m slowly losing energy and slipping into drowsiness 💤. This state creates mental disturbance, and I can feel my mind becoming unsettled.

So I asked myself: What if I try to keep my breath long, but natural? Not forced, just enough to stay energized. 🌬️💡

That’s something I want to experiment with tomorrow. I believe a more stable breath could help avoid that sluggish feeling and maintain deeper awareness throughout the meditation.

So yeah, that’s what I observed today. These are things someone should know if they’re going through a similar path, and if anyone out there has advice, guidance, or related experiences 🗣️, I’d really love to hear it. Sharing helps.

Until next time—
Signing off 📝, staying aware, staying open.

Let the journey continue... 🙏🌌